i know i have been waiting for the time when brixx and i would be together. he has been my inspiration and the reason why i have been working like a dog and why i bear with this damn life that i have. but now that i was informed that i really need to get him as soon as possible, i started to worry and feel scared. deep down inside i know i direly long to hug and kiss him every moment of my life, yet i know i am financially unready to take care of him on my own. i don't even have a place of my own for god's sake! where will we live? how can i give him the most conjusive home that he needs? those questions have been bugging me for days now and how i wish i could find a solution to my problem in a very short span of time. he is my responsibility and not my family's, i am fully aware of that. but things aren't as easy as it should be for me.

right now i don't have plans yet as to how to do with our life in the next month. the only thing that's definite is we will be together now and my life will change drastically.