it's been a bad week for me. i've been irritated with petty things in the last few days and now i get to hear a very hurting news. tsk tsk tsk. well, it's not just hurting-- it's more of insulting. i never liked the idea of comparing myself with other people but i can't help but do so this time. the girl whom my crush has an affair with happens to be in the same office (though different site). that girl used to talk to me!! grrr... modesty aside but i'm way too attractive than her! her physique is so amazon-like built for hard-work. forgive my mean description but it's really frustrating knowing all the humiliating things i've done for him. with all honesty i can say that i got turned-off to him because of his taste and feel nothing but disgusted to him.
argh! i'm not sure what's happening with my life right now. everything's blurry, everything's not going right. i need to unwind and reflect. probably i've been so stressed and what i'm thinking is just paranoia. fortunately tomorrow's my rest day. geez, i'll finally get to rest after two weeks of work! come to think of it... i almost forgot how it feels like to rest! whoa! anyways, sabog-sabog na sulat ko dito!! kung ano2 na yata naiisip ko... hahaha! 'di na gumagana utak ko!