
i was downloading my pix yesterday and i happened to have seen the pic of my lola. gosh, how i miss her! it's the longest time that i've been seperated from her. how i wish i could fly to see her. her mere voice is not enough... i'd love to kiss her, hug her, and tell her how much she means to me.
i couldn't imagine my life without her. all these time she has been with me, living for me. sometimes i feel guilty since i know that she has been struggling with whatever illnesses she have because she feels she can't leave me behind. she thinks i'm not ready to face the world on my own yet which is true. if there's someone who understands me and knows how i feel without probing, that will be my dear granny. no words needed.
i'm missing her desperately as i write this. things are starting to confuse me. but i should bear in mind that i should do well in my life right now for her to be happy, and i'm doing this partly for her.
